What's Going On With This Body

03-04-2026

The last few days this has been a journey and laughter has been key otherwise I'd probably cry all day. Back in November of 2025 I started my period, as usual on a Thursday. Lovely curse as I call it and then the cramps and all the fun till Monday. It stopped then a few days later, only when I would go to the bathroom and wipe, there would be blood. This went on for two weeks. My hormones were out of control. I would wake up in the morning in a pool of sweat. Very emotional, hating everything I wore, nothing looked right I just felt off. Not myself. It finally stopped and I felt amazing again. I started on a journey to lose a few stubborn pounds and it was working, clothes felt a little better. I increased my protein, and healthy fats. Last week, I started to get that feeling I had in November, except along with it this time was a really dull pain on my right side, I was thinking an ovary, but it seems much lower than that. It comes and goes, now with the bleeding only when I wipe and the pain is a little more, then it stops. Yesterday was a full period day, and I'm not supposed to start until tomorrow (always a Thursday) I'm hoping like the last time, once the actual period starts, and then  stops I will be good again. Because all that progress I was making  with my belly weight, seems to have gone away. It is such a roller coaster, but this time trying to not be emotional about it. I just barely started taking Ashwagandha. Its almost time for my yearly exam with my Dr. I'll be asking him about all of this, hopefully the right ovary type pain is gone, but we will discuss that also. Back to waking up all sweaty, my hell my hair looks like a rats nest when I wake up, when I went to sleep with it all nice and smooth. I'm trying to talk to this body of mine to tell her to just freaking relax already. I never loved her before I was never good enough, but now I want to embrace her. but these damn 5 pounds and trying to tighten this tummy is the most ridiculously hard thing to do. Everything online wants you to try this and that and to be completely honest, I've fallen for some of it and tried some of it, but we are all so different, none of it is working for me. I need to dig deep to ask this body what she wants from me. I'm sorry I called you fat when you weren't but damn girl be kind to me now. haha. That's my thoughts for the day for now. Lets see what tomorrow brings

03-24-2026

Laughter really is the best medicine. Little story time here. Since all the above has happened, I also now have  a little pain in the very lowest part of the pubic area, on the side. I thought it was due to a pulled muscle I have near my tailbone from running, but I'm starting to wonder if it is its own pain. I am not one to just up and volunteer to go to the Dr. but after a few months of both of these pains, and nothing I seem to do helps. I decided to make a Dr. appointment. I go on April 9th. So I'll update then, what is happening.  Normally May would be my regular women's appointment. The yearly exam. Although these days the pap is only every 5 years if you have normal tests. So lets just do it all, let's rule it out and see what these pulled muscles are doing. I make jokes about my puss pad being bruised just to make my husband laugh, but for real. I don't know what is there. Then I think since I am almost 47, maybe I have developed Endometriosis?  Fallopian tube pinched? I've gone down so many worm holes looking up stuff online, I think I've made myself crazy. does anyone else do that? Look up things excessively the freak out about your own diagnosis. When 9 times out of 10 its nothing. Like the rest of this blog, this will also have to do with Manifesting and Bipolar...it touches on all of that. Does any of this make sense or resonate with you?

03-30-2026

Update. So I am still waiting to get to the Dr. My appointment is still on April 9th, but I have done some digging and I have a diagnosis my myself haha Does anyone else do that? Try to be an investigator and come to your own conclusion? We are going to take a quick trip back to 2015. I broke 2 ribs getting out of bed... I felt a pop and yes that is all I did and what this has to do with all my pains now you'll see. Bear with me. I went to the Dr after a week of massive pain. When I told him what cause it he said he was concerned, hey buddy i am too at this point. Anyway I had a bone density test and it was pretty clear I had a very low bone density (very much likely due to an eating disorder as a teen). Started all the extra calcium etc. healed up and now here we are. Well about 6 months ago I started taking a hair growth/multi vitamin that I used in replacement of my regular vitamins. (it said not to mix them preferably) Now I have this ungodly pain on my tailbone and the right side of the very lower pubic area. Guys!! I honestly think that I have a fracture on my tailbone and it is radiating the pain to the front as well. The fracture had to of happened the same way my ribs did. I looked up the hair growth vitamin and saw that it doesn't have enough calcium to support someone with low bone density. Top that off with me running every weekend, I did twist my ankle, but just shrugged it off. It wasn't to bad, Plus I am stubborn and active and wont let a piddly ankle keep me down. I hadn't even replaced my shoe inset for my leg that is a little shorter. I know i am tempting fate, but I did order more inserts, kept running even when the tailbone got really sore. Went to Vegas with my husband for our anniversary, ate ibuprofen like candy and walked all day every day. Came home and ran again and that one did me in. I've been working out very lightly and doing what I am supposed to do, I also changed back to my multivitamin with calcium. In the meantime, I sit on my donut at work and power through my day. Cant wait to tell my Dr. What i have discovered, anyone want to bet I am right? Maybe he can pay me for bringing my diagnosis to him? haha, teasing. So this portion of life I am going through, isn't really the Peri, or the Meno...this is more of the What. :) Thanks for reading