Peri...meno....what!?!

Laughter is the best medicine

The single most important thing I want you to take away from this page is that there's always something to smile about. I get through these things with laughter and a sense of humor. Everyone is unique, but some of us go through the same things, and I want to connect with people like me. Let's find the humor in our journeys and support each other through the ups and downs.

03-04-2026

The last few days this has been a journey and laughter has been key otherwise I'd probably cry all day. Back in November of 2025 I started my period, as usual on a Thursday. Lovely curse as I call it and then the cramps and all the fun till Monday. It stopped then a few days later, only when I would go to the bathroom and wipe, there would be blood. This went on for two weeks. My hormones were out of control. I would wake up in the morning in a pool of sweat. Very emotional, hating everything I wore, nothing looked right I just felt off. Not myself. It finally stopped and I felt amazing again. I started on a journey to lose a few stubborn pounds and it was working, clothes felt a little better. I increased my protein, and healthy fats. Last week, I started to get that feeling I had in November, except along with it this time was a really dull pain on my right side, I was thinking an ovary, but it seems much lower than that. It comes and goes, now with the bleeding only when I wipe and the pain is a little more, then it stops. Yesterday was a full period day, and I'm not supposed to start until tomorrow (always a Thursday) I'm hoping like the last time, once the actual period starts, and then  stops I will be good again. Because all that progress I was making  with my belly weight, seems to have gone away. It is such a roller coaster, but this time trying to not be emotional about it. I just barely started taking Ashwagandha. Its almost time for my yearly exam with my Dr. I'll be asking him about all of this, hopefully the right ovary type pain is gone, but we will discuss that also. Back to waking up all sweaty, my hell my hair looks like a rats nest when I wake up, when I went to sleep with it all nice and smooth. I'm trying to talk to this body of mine to tell her to just freaking relax already. I never loved her before I was never good enough, but now I want to embrace her. but these damn 5 pounds and trying to tighten this tummy is the most ridiculously hard thing to do. Everything online wants you to try this and that and to be completely honest, I've fallen for some of it and tried some of it, but we are all so different, none of it is working for me. I need to dig deep to ask this body what she wants from me. I'm sorry I called you fat when you weren't but damn girl be kind to me now. haha. That's my thoughts for the day for now. Lets see what tomorrow brings

03-24-2026

Laughter really is the best medicine. Little story time here. Since all the above has happened, I also now have  a little pain in the very lowest part of the pubic area, on the side. I thought it was due to a pulled muscle I have near my tailbone from running, but I'm starting to wonder if it is its own pain. I am not one to just up and volunteer to go to the Dr. but after a few months of both of these pains, and nothing I seem to do helps. I decided to make a Dr. appointment. I go on April 9th. So I'll update then, what is happening.  Normally May would be my regular women's appointment. The yearly exam. Although these days the pap is only every 5 years if you have normal tests. So lets just do it all, let's rule it out and see what these pulled muscles are doing. I make jokes about my puss pad being bruised just to make my husband laugh, but for real. I don't know what is there. Then I think since I am almost 47, maybe I have developed Endometriosis?  Fallopian tube pinched? I've gone down so many worm holes looking up stuff online, I think I've made myself crazy. does anyone else do that? Look up things excessively the freak out about your own diagnosis. When 9 times out of 10 its nothing. Like the rest of this blog, this will also have to do with Manifesting and Bipolar...it touches on all of that. Does any of this make sense or resonate with you?