Beyond The Diagnosis

My Story, Your Hope

Growing up, life felt incredibly complicated, battling a mind that seemed to work against me. As a young adult, navigating uncharted waters without guidance was challenging. Years of therapy and various medications followed, until I realized there was more to me than my mental illness. It doesn't need to consume your life; it can be the beginning of a new chapter.

If I can help at least one person with this I would be happy. A safe place to vent and talk it out. I spent so many years with it bottled up. Creating stories in my head about what I thought was happening and then causing so much turmoil. I found peace with my dad. He saw me, he let me be raw (As long as I didn't take it out on my mom) that was a different story, he wouldn't put up with that and put me in my place more than once. The day I got so pissed and punched a hole in the bathroom door, and to this day I don't even know what I was so mad about. That day, my dad told me to yell and scream at him, he could take it. "Get it out Punkin" he would say. Sometimes, though he would push my buttons on purpose. Once I got very mean. I was a ticking timebomb. Everything worked out, and we forgave each other but it hurts now that he is gone and I think about that day sometimes. 

There were the days in between where I thought I was invincible and could do anything, grandiose is what they called it in therapy. Racking up over $30,000 in credit card debt and having to file for bankruptcy when I was 27. Not a fun time. Does anyone else relate to this. I used to feel like an alien and no one would understand. Now that I am almost 47, I see life through different glasses and wonder how I could of ever been how I was. Am I cured? I don't know, but I can honestly say that my last "episode" happened in 2016, and maybe a few little outbursts here and there after that through 2019. I'm calm now, the beast as I have always called it has been put to rest and I don't feel it anymore in my gut. It was through meditation, painting, getting off of medication and switching to vitamins, and a whole lot more I'll get into later. That's what this Blog is about, a Scatterbrained girl with lots of ideas, and how they all have to do with each other.

Newly Diagnosed? You're Not Alone.

If you've just been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, remember, it doesn't have to be scary. While I'm not a doctor, I believe medication can be a valuable tool, but it's not the only answer. There's a wealth of information available, and countless individuals with unique perspectives. I'm here to share my real, raw, and honest experiences of overcoming life's challenges. I want you to know that I am a regular girl, not a celebrity, giving my real, raw and honest truths of what I went through in life and how I've overcome it